Over the last year there have been several big changes in my life that I’ve had to accept concerning my health, job, and relationships. Over the last month God has shown me how much I still had to let go of things in my life that are no longer the same and how much I still need to accept the things that have changed and things that are still changing. I have been going to Celebrate Recovery at Uncommon Grounds for over 2 years, a program that by it’s nature brings about change and transformation in the lives of those who work the program, and I am still learning to truly accept real change and trust that God will take care of me when things are difficult and I cannot see what is in store for my future.
None of us really know what the future has in store, but many like myself try to make plans and figure out ways to feel we have some control over the things that happen to us in life. It has been and continues to be a struggle for me to accept that I cannot know how my life will work out or control my future or make anything certain or secure other than entrusting my life and my future to God. I know and believe that God does indeed work all things for my good, that even when I cannot see or understand what He is doing or how He will use even the difficulties and pain for my good, I can trust that God is faithful and perfect in His goodness and love for me.
Isaiah 55:8-9 says, “’For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,’ declares the Lord. ‘As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.’” I am learning that because God’s ways are not my ways, when my plans fail and things don’t go as I wanted, it may be hard but I am learning to truly trust and believe that this does not mean God’s good plans for me have gone wrong and that I can still trust that He is at work in my life and His goodness, faithfulness, and love will never fail. I am learning to find peace in trusting the God I know when I cannot rely on anything else for security or peace and learning that God is the only thing in life that can ever truly be relied upon.