Written by: Helen Yi
Remembering Who is Good
Looking back at the past 10 weeks, my biggest regret was missing out on intimate moments with the people I love. The relationship that I completely tossed aside due to “busyness” and “unavailability” was my relationship with my Heavenly Father. I began to distance myself from Him and I erected a wall in my heart that didn’t let anyone in. I ran from intimacy with God-fearing people because I was afraid they would see through my façade and call me out on it. I avoided deep conversations and letting people see the broken, dark, empty places within me. I avoided God’s nudges and whispers. I shut Him out and let myself fall into an all-consuming numbness.
This past week God unleashed all of the emotions inside my heart that I had stowed far deep within myself. He surfaced my pain, insecurities, wounds, sins, depression and anxieties. He shined a light on the darkest parts of me that I was keeping in the shadows and then He boiled down all of it to one thing I was not accepting. My identity. My inheritance. My purpose. I kept telling myself I was not worthy of His love and acceptance. I told myself I wasn’t worthy to be called His daughter. I ignored who He said I was and believed the lies the enemy placed in my mind.
Today, I choose to remember that I am His daughter and that I am who He says I am. Today, I choose to remember that the things of my past do not have any power over me, but the blood of Christ covers me and who the Son sets free is free indeed. Today, I choose to remember He is good. He is God.